Drifting Through Life
Holding on to you so tightly knowing I need to let go,
Crying so hard I’m sick with envy,
Everyone who is happy,
The kissing teenager,
The loved up family,
Even the young lovers rolling around together.
I look at our photographs and wish I could go back there,
To those sunny days sitting together,
Right back to the beginning when we both were so shy,
Why oh why did we have to die?
I shouldn’t have pushed you so far,
I should have listened to you most inner desire,
Tired of fighting, of losing control,
Tired of being made look a fool.
All those times you watched me get hurt,
You held back your fears and let me learn,
You were a gem amongst all the men,
And I spent and squandered what you out into this.
I’ve used you,
I’ve abused you,
And yet now as I feel the loss settle in my heart,
I want to fight for your heart again.
Finally I feel the fear,
Fear of forever being alone,
Because I lost the true and only one,
I can’t turn back the clocks,
I can’t take back those harmful faults.
But I can say I’m sorry,
I can try and make amends,
Mend the fractures in your heart and soul,
Try to be a better and more loving me,
But then again...
Maybe I should just let my head fall,
Let you walk away,
And just drift on and on.
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